I think I figured it out. I never got a chance to do anything. I was never given an opportunity to. That’s why I feel so bad, so shattered. It’s because I somehow blame myself. It’s always “could I have done things differently?” It never starts with an accusation of her. Yes, I always wonder why she never gave me a chance. But, that only comes second to me blaming myself. I think how I never should have given my heart away, when it should be that she could have at least returned it nicely.
Isn’t this how it always goes?
Why though? Why are we left feeling guilty for having our hearts broken?
I can’t explain that very well. I just know for some reason we all blame ourselves. Like it was something we did. Maybe there was something we could’ve done differently. I don’t know why people do it when they get their hearts broken. I know I do it. Majorly.
I think only those with a capacity for real love experience this. Those who are only in it for a stroke of their own ego wouldn’t have these feelings. I really like your poetry. Keep posting. It is a little gift to anticipate and open each day!
Thank you, Larry. I’m flattered.
I really appreciate your comments.